I Come Back Again

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Photo of a coffee cup sitting on a counter, shot from above, with latte art of a smiling cat's face on it. White text in the centre of the image reads: "I leave the city in summer, and I come back again." Handle @sage_pantony in smaller transparent text under white text.

I leave the city in summer and return to winter (but do not fear, I was not gone for more than 21 consecutive days).

The snow is here, the leaves are gone, and the moisture has been pulled from the air–frozen.

I buy a great big bag of salt while out with a friend and carry it on my shoulder for the long walk home. She offers to help, but I did this to myself.

I bid on a painting at a Denny’s as a joke, and of course, I win. A Selection of Seagulls will hang above my couch in 10-14 business days.

I start writing again, just to help and without expectation. I realize not writing had also been hurting.

The anxiety eases. The pain lessens. I’m sleeping again. My heart, which had been breaking, begins to mend.

I leave the city in summer, and I come back again.

Published by Sage Pantony

Sage Pantony is a writer, poet, and zinester. They have been making zines since 2019 that have been featured in stores, libraries, and fairs across North America. Sage’s work covers topics like education, activism, gender, sexuality, mental health, trauma, and creativity. They currently reside in Tiohtià:ke/Montréal with their partner and cat. You can check out their zines at www.sagepantony.com or follow them on Bluesky or Tumblr @sage-pantony.

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